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Been one heck of a week

As some on here know, or at least I think I've said it before. I suffer from chronic migraines. This week has been terrible, for me. Excruciatingly, painful... just getting by... being incapacitated by it so much this week. However, I somehow manage to push through it and slowly get used to the pain. Somewhere, someplace along the years I have heard someone or something say something to the effect of, "No matter what the pain is like, there is always a new ten waiting to be discovered." It's horrendous, terrible and yet I must survive, must endure. There is so much to live for, so much to care about, so much to live to do... even if I can not see it now. Even if all I want to do is crawl into an ice cold metal cube without my head and go far far away from it. There is just so much pain. So much to live for if I can just get to the other side. Just learn to put the pain where it belongs, where I have learned to live with it. Learned to endure... just wish I could find out what the cause of it all is. Just keep pushing on. Pushing forward... pushing till it no longer makes my vision swim, dim, or turn colors. Just keep pushing forward... there is a light at the end of the tunnel.... Somewhere... there is an end to the pain.... somewhere...

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Sounds horrendous. I've had the odd migraine in the eye where one gets blinded, but never as bad as what you describe. Do you know what causes it?
deanhills on Fri Mar 22, 2013 6:15 pm
Every doctor I have been to, has never been able to find anything wrong. I am sure there is something... but if the cause can not be determined, what is one to do.

I do my best to be upbeat because I know there are people who have it worse off than I do. Besides at times the pain is comforting. It tells me I am still alive. Still able to do stuff, to make the world a better place. Still able to make a difference.

All you can do is keep putting one foot in front of the other... eventually you will get somewhere. That applies so much more when your hurting or down than ever, in my opinion. Eventually, it will pass/dim or be gotten used to and you will be able to do more. Just keep pushing on and on and the present 10 will dwindle to a manageable 9... 8.... 7... etc etc. Or if you are lucky it will truly diminish. Hope all is well. Keep on keeping on! Don't let the downs knock you out! Time to go crawl over and hopefully pass out.
pauline123 on Fri Mar 22, 2013 8:01 pm
That is terrible, Pauline.
standready on Fri Mar 22, 2013 9:46 pm
Worst headaches I have are the ones I wake up with or the ones I get behind my right eye. They sound horribly mild compared to your migraines. I don't know how you do it. The only persistent pain I put I with was in my foot. I think it was right right foot and every step I took hurt. Felt like I had a white hot fire burning in the bones near my big toe. I've mostly gotten past that and it's the main reason I wear practical footwear. It doesn't sound like there is much you can do with migraines. Sad
TheGremlyn on Fri Mar 22, 2013 10:05 pm
Glad you got past it, TheGremlyn. Wish there was something that I could try like practical footwear. I have tried everything I can think of, diets, avoiding certain activities, certain foods, even certain smells. Some things work better than others but nothing I have found has been anything close to a cure. However, the small victories are the ones you have to count, I guess. One step at a time. One painful, agonizing step at a time. The one thing that helps me is knowing that someday, this will be nothing. One step at a time.
pauline123 on Fri Mar 22, 2013 11:08 pm
I think the doctors will not give you perfect solutions because they don't know what cause these things. It may also vary from individual to individual. Sounds silly, somethings do, but have you tried water treatment? Many people ignore the benefits of drinking good healthy water. Some even say they don't like water. I can understand why if they have had less than drinkable water but when people tell me this, I just shut up.
Bluedoll on Sat Mar 23, 2013 1:13 pm
Thanks for the suggestion, BlueDoll, I do have drinkable water and I have tried multiple quantities of water consumption. I try my best to always drink AT LEAST 8 cups of pure water a day (okay I count tea [herbal tea], but even then I still usually drink about 8 cups of plain water at minimum. I have also tried drinking a gallon a day, which is a decent amount of water, let me tell you! However, if you know a specific quota that I could try... please let me know! Either it is dimming or I am getting used to it at this level... regardless functionality is slowly returning! Always exciting! Always newsworthy in my books!
pauline123 on Sat Mar 23, 2013 10:52 pm
Is there something that usually sets off these migraines at such a painful level? I had a prof that would get migraines from flashing lights. Pretty sure he just loved our embedded systems labs where we had to make the board LED flash at different frequencies!
TheGremlyn on Sat Mar 23, 2013 11:16 pm
Been trying to figure that out for years... only thing I can be 100% sure about is being alive Smile I do try to avoid high-pitched noises, bright lights, and considerable bass... as much as I can. Sunlight is not a friend of mine... but sunglasses only do so much.

Well, whatever the cause I am mostly functional now. Pretty much as close to "normal" as I know.
pauline123 on Mon Mar 25, 2013 2:31 pm
I heard about this brand new report this morning on the news.
Don't know if it will help you figure out what is going on.
standready on Wed Mar 27, 2013 4:21 am

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