I really don't know what has been going on lately, but none of it has been good. I just feel like I am falling down in this endless spiral. Now I know that a lot of people say this, but I really mean it. Every time I seem to think things are getting better I find something that ruins it all again. Even as I type this I am very depressed and really I just need to put this down and get it out, or it will eat me alive. Honestly I don't know if I am just to stupid, or what because I must always seem to be saying the wrong thing because after everything I say just come more criticism, and insults.
I just can't get people to know that just how they see it now isn't how they are going to stay THEY ARE STILL UNDER CONSTRUCTION. All the insults to everything I do. I am just so sick of this all. So I am going to say this now if I stop posting for a bit that means that I have decided to just disappear for a while which I probably will do. I just need a break from it all.
This is the easy stuff to ignore, but I have more of a challenge waiting to fight all of it in my life. I am so sick of all the trials and failure lately. It is just starting to become to much for me to handle anymore. I try and try to make it better, but like always does that help? NO, just like it never does, and will anyone help me? NO, just like always I understand others are busy, and I am not asking for help, so don't feel like you have to. I just need to fade a way for a bit, or maybe for a while we will see how it turns out.
For now though I may post some updates to my situation, but they wont be very long. So until my return THIS WILL be my last post. I will miss some of you here on frihost, but really there are more of you adding to the problem so until I return GOODBYE to all my friends here on frihost for I am leaving and this is it.
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