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Question about Anxiety

This shouldn't be news to some. Evenings are the worst for me with anxiety, and the mornings can be pretty rough. I'm seeing a counsellor again because I know that is what will have the greatest impact on my emotional and mental health; they're just a little busy so I can only get in every other week, as opposed to once a week (usually for a month or so then I start to cut back slightly). I did, however, have to ask my Doctor for something in the short term to help manage my anxiety and take the edge off. She prescribed me 30 1mg pills of Lorazepam.

I don't like the idea of taking medication like this and I've ready up on all the side effects and issues and this one seems to be the worst for addiction and side effects and withdrawal symptoms. I only have to take it when I need it so I only take it at night so that I can get to sleep okay. So far I've only taken it once in the morning and that's because of a post breakup dream that had me reeling with unpleasant emotions. I ended up being really drowsy afterwards but I was able to nap at a friends for a few hours before work.

I'm just worried. I've never been hit like this before and I've never felt this anxiety before. The way it just sits in my chest, makes my heart beat slightly faster and I guess my adrenaline must be flowing too since I usually feel like I have to run away somewhere. Right now I feel kind of shaky and my stomach gets a little upset and I don't think I can sit this one out, and I don't have a counsellor on hand to try and figure out what's going on in my head.

I'll be making another appointment with my Doctor so I can talk to her about what my options are and go over each of them in detail. I would rather not go on more permanent medication because, like Lorazepam, it just covers up the symptoms. As a mentioned earlier, Lorazepam is meant for short term use (2 to 4 weeks) and I sure as hell don't want to rely on it to help me get to sleep. Stargate can only do so much to distract me... and in the beginning it wasn't distracting me at all, it just made time go by a little faster.

I just can't be the only one out there that's felt this way for some reason. I know my sister (mother hen) has been through a lot since she likes to take on all the world's problems onto her shoulders. People do have issues with anxiety, and certainly depression. I at least don't think I have the depression part, I know I've felt that before and I can certainly crack a joke now and then and laugh and smile. I just go from normal to hummingbird in 2.5 seconds.

I've been working at jumping away from unpleasant thoughts and memories and forcing myself to think of other things. Dwelling on those can certainly make things worse. It's almost funny but when one unpleasant image flashed in my mind I immediately thought of My Little Ponies! Ah! Of all the things! Pinky Pie and Rainbow Dash... I do the best I can to keep my mind occupied with other things but... the anxiety still comes back into my chest... I just wonder how long it will hang around. How long do I have to wait, how many counselling sessions will I have to go through until this uncomfortable energy leaves me? I'm prepared for the work ahead, almost eager for it, I just wish I had a visible timeline...

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I'm not an expert at all, but why not take the Lorazepam at night time before you go to sleep? Particularly since it makes you drowsy. Maybe it will do something with the dreams as well?

Also, if you can find exercise you like that you can really get a great work out from, as well as challenge you, there is nothing that can beat a cure for anxiety like getting regular physical work outs. A friend of mine is a stickler with that. For every job activity or experience he goes through, he has to have an offsetting compensating physical activity. If you exhaust your body, you may be able to sleep better, and if you get more fit, you may eat better, and get stronger. The stronger you get, the more confident you become, and that should definitely help with anxiety. Physical exercise is probably one of the world's greatest gifts, including if and when one has the opportunity to get out in fresh air and move long distances. Versus staying frozen and huddled in one position and allowing the mind to go on its merry go around paralyzing thoughts over and over again.
deanhills on Thu Jan 24, 2013 12:54 pm
I do take the Lorazepam at night before bed, or sometimes a little earlier in the evening if I feel the anxiety kicking in. I can usually feel it slowly dissipate between talking with some friends and watching some Stargate I do eventually just drift off. I'm not sure that it has helped with the dreams, I don't have a lot of control over what pops into my head a night. I usually just think my dreams is my minds way of working through some issue; although I've had some pretty strange ones (like the talking fox).

I do have a gym membership it's just my eating habits are so messed up. I've never been good at eating in the morning because I usually feel a little queasy. Later into the day I can't really eat larger portions because my stomach just can't handle that much room. I basically snack at various points during the day on grapes, bell peppers, granola bars, cookies, yoghurt, and some crackers (like triscuits or bretons). I'm working my way up to something more, like I had last week before I got sick again.

I just want to make sure that when I do go work out I'm properly hydrated and have enough energy. I'd hate to go there and start on an elliptical and then faint. If you've got any suggestions of foods I can try and incorporate into my day I can try and look for those and incorporate them. I think my body would definitely appreciate the opportunity to physically work off some of the stress and anxiety that's been building up in my body.
TheGremlyn on Thu Jan 24, 2013 1:15 pm
I'll suggest jogging.
Like I said in the previous thread, I start to jog when I broke up with my ex.
During that period, jogging really help me a lot.
When I ran, I concentrated on my motion and breath.

I focused on myself to keep the pace,
so I left those emotions behind and ran to a better life.
rx9876 on Fri Jan 25, 2013 9:07 am
About the eating habits, maybe you could try low-glycemic diet.
If the blood sugar is low, some people might feel depressed or anxious.
If they eat many carbohydrates or (even worse) sugars,
they can be cheer up for a short time.
Human body will try to maintain a balance,
so it will release insulin to reduce the blood sugar ASAP,
then people feel bad again.

I don't know those snacks you eat are sugars high or not,
but adopt low-glycemic diet might help to stabilize the blood sugar
and prevent the emotions being like a roller coaster.

If you try to take some sports, you might need to eat some protein and calcium.
I read some articles about that calcium / Vitamin B are good for ease anxious too.
Maybe you could google some articles about food and anxiety, sport and anxiety.
If it's ok to you, try to read some books talking about those topics.

A doctor might not use the best way to treat the patients.
Sometimes they use the fastest, easiest, most profitable way to "fix" the patients.
Having good diets and sport habits helps more than medicine in the long term.
rx9876 on Fri Jan 25, 2013 9:45 am
Lorazepam, as a benzodiazepines class of drugs, is addictive indeed when used long-term... But It seems to me that getting to know more about "Generalized Anxiety Disorder" (knowledge-wise) is a key element for handling it.. besides of course your therapist's sessions.. which basically should help you adjust your cognitive and behavioral attitude towards a better management of your anxiety (refer to quote bellow)
Cognitive-behavioral therapy helps you understand your behaviors and how to gain control of them. You will have 10 to 20 visits over a number of weeks. During therapy you will learn how to:
    * Understand and gain control of your distorted views of life stressors, such as other people's behavior or life events.
    * Recognize and replace panic-causing thoughts, decreasing the sense of helplessness.
    * Manage stress and relax when symptoms occur.
    * Avoid thinking that minor worries will develop into very bad problems.

It's extracted from this PubMed Health page about Generalized anxiety disorder, and you can also find other resources in the US "National Institute of Mental Health" on Anxiety Disorders...

Wish you a well and fast recovery...
fouadCh on Fri Jan 25, 2013 10:12 am
I don't have anything to say, just hoping you feel better and get less anxious. Exercising, eating better (if possible), and perhaps avoiding caffeine would be a couple of things that I would suggest you try... Not that you are not probably trying one if not all of these anyway. Caffeine can be a big culprit in anxiety and most doctors don't think anything about it, from my experiences with them. I hope you get your anxiety under control. All the best. Smile
pauline123 on Fri Jan 25, 2013 3:03 pm
anxiety is pretty funny, I used to have it even when I didn't take my medication, what I used to do though was practice my inner dialogue, that helped me sort out my inner emotions which were often in turmoil due to personal problems.
ateawonton on Tue Jan 29, 2013 7:17 am

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