Have you ever been so amped up about something that it doesn't just make the day go by slowly, but you check the clock every 10 minutes and you can swear that time has just started screwing with ya?
The worst part is the worry. Will what you have been waiting for be good enough? Will you do justice to what you are striving for? Will people just laugh off your attempts and give up on you?
These are just some of the things that remind you how much anticipation sucks!
I have had plenty of those moments. Plenty of wishful thoughts going into them as well. Hoping for a positive manifestation. I think if we have that in our lives, we have to be alive. If we find those moments no longer being around, we have to be dead and decaying?
Yep, time does change with our moods. I've always liked anticipation! What gets me however is when times seems to slow you get the impression that it will stay that way only to find out it has become the past and that quickly goes by too fast.
I used to be a musician. I've played in many different bands (I've played trumpet in a couple of jazz bands, dixieland bands, and concert bands, I've played the baritone, trombone, and piano in a couple of other concert bands, and then I've played bass in a stringed orchestra) and the hour before a show where we're warming up would drag and drag. I wouldn't be able to wait until we're out in front of an audience playing. Once we finally would get out in front of everybody and we're just jamming and having fun, time would fly. But time sure did drag in that hour before a show.
I've been on the other side of it dozens of times, also. Time drags when you're a music listener and you're waiting for a band to come out and play. That half hour between an opening band and a headliner drags as hundreds of people are chanting "bodom, bodom" or "slayer, slayer" or "[any band name]."
I try to just not think about what will be happening soon. That just makes the time drag and I'd rather have the time fly by so that I can get to what I want to happen...
Actually these days, time is going so fast that I cannot stop it. I wish I had the same slowliness feeling than you!
What sucks more than anticipation is finally getting to that time and realizing what you were waiting for wasn't there.
In general, I try to avoid this "excitement" before some event so that I can focus on what's happening right now and make sure no problems arise in the future. Especially for something I wasn't able to do well enough because of the said anticipation.